July 29, 2015

Today

I just want to tell you what we did today.

It was such a little thing, really. A family outing that probably most people just do and don't really think much of.

But it's kind of a bigger deal to me.

Because Mark can't drive anymore (I never could, remember) and he may have one doctor appointment or another, or be in the hospital, or even just not feel well enough....

So we don't do many fun things as a family these days. I do things sometimes, and our kids do too, with friends and such. Once in awhile Mark gets to as well.

Today? We took a quick 15 minute drive with Mark's paid caregiver to a local beach and picnic area called Kayak Point.


(Don't think the caregiver is supposed to take us to do such things, but it's very nice that she wants to; kind of feels like she's taking care of all of us a little bit.)

The weather was perfect and so were the views.



We walked out on the long dock where there were several men fishing.


AJ got Camryn to climb partway up this bouncy rope climbing structure thing (in her dress, no less) before she chickened out. Of course he went to the very top!


The water was really cold, but since when do kids care?


I happened to notice a sweet couple sitting near us too.


AJ "took a stroll" up and down the beach, trying to stay on logs only. He actually did this a couple of times. Once, Camryn joined him.


It was all just so nice.

It's the little things, you know?



July 20, 2015

An Awful, Negative and Ranty Post

I'm afraid to write this and share it because of how I might be judged.

But I think I'm at a point where I don't care what anyone thinks about how I'm feeling. I don't think there's anything wrong with honesty and being real.

Oh the FEELINGS. All the FUCKING FEELINGS!

It's uncomfortable, sure, and everyone wishes the less-than-happy-and-positive feelings didn't exist.

But they do, dammit.

People feel bad sometimes.

I feel bad sometimes.

July 14, 2015

How I Became Visually Impaired

I think it was the summer that I was seven when I first realized I couldn’t see the stop sign at the end of the street clearly. My mom took me to an optometrist and I got my first pair of glasses.

No biggie. Kids needs glasses all the time.

A few years later, when I was 10, I noticed some little fuzzy, black dots floating around in my field of vision. This was some inflammation in my right eye. It was treated with a shot of steroids (in my eye!) and life went on.

During the summer after my freshman year of high school (I was 15), I completely lost the sight in my left eye.

July 9, 2015

Being Discreet at Target



I first wrote about my occasional light bladder leakage and Always Discreet almost nine months ago.

Since then I have been relieved to have this product on hand in my bathroom.


Relieved. Ha.

Because, it doesn't appear that this is a problem that will just magically go away. In fact, sometimes I can't strain my lower abdominal muscles even a little bit without a something escaping.

Ahem.

July 8, 2015

I Can't Blog....I Haz the Life


I am writing this real quick, on the fly, before I bail out of my house for a girl's night out that I'm desperately hoping I can fake my way to happy for.

You see, things have been very trying for me (and Mark) for the last few weeks, and it's all been bubbling to the surface these last few days.

there's all of THAT, along with the kids home for the summer and a very long and annoying heat wave uncharacteristic of Western Washington.

June 29, 2015

Some Things Just Are What They Are

While perusing my Facebook news feed recently I saw a fan page status asking followers what common phrases get under their skin.

Several people answered, "It is what it is." One person clarified, "Ugh, just change it!"

I kept thinking about this for hours. (Funny how something you see in passing will do that to you, hu?)

You see, that phrase is one if my life mantras (I have it printed on a mug, and would buy a wall hanging of it if I found one I liked), so I can't understand why anyone would be put off by it.

And the person who exclaimed "just change it!" bothered me because that is the exact opposite of what the phrase is about.

June 22, 2015

Daily Diabetic Complications

No one is supposed to actually come out and say this, but Diabetes is an insidious disease that kills you slowly over time.

Truth.

Even if you take the best care of yourself you possibly can, some complication of Diabetes will most likely lead to your demise.

I don't even want to list all the problems that can crop up because it is too long and depressing. Quite commonly, Diabetes is the leading cause of blindness and kidney disease, two terrible and permanent afflictions.

I married a man with Type 1 Diabetes and over the years have been watching it take its toll on him. It actually started its rampage in Mark before I met him. He was diagnosed at age 9 and by 25 he was legally blind, was losing kidney function and neuropathy had begun in this feet. Once his kidneys failed he was blessed to receive a kidney and pancreas transplant which commenced a six year reprieve from Diabetes (and dialysis).

June 16, 2015

VLOG: 10 Things in My Junk Drawer

Oh my gosh, you guys, I did a video of what's in my junk drawer for Tuesday Ten this week!

This was no easy task, though. You see, I have had what seems like the entire world in my house today. By the time 4:30 rolled around I had to tell my husband to zip it and kick my son out the door so I could just get 'er done!

There's nothing fancy here. I used my phone's camera. No shots of my face because I couldn't use the camera switchy option thingy while videoing.

But you get to hear my voice!