August 31, 2012

TGIF: August 2012

Welcome to the very first MONTHLY....


Ah, August! The driest month of the year where I live. Besides one tiny little heat wave, the weather has been very nice indeed.

Things that have been making me happy this month include:

What became my "summer project", watching all 7 seasons of Bones so that I could pick up with the rest of the world when season 8 begins on September 17. It is really a very good show.


The monotony of summer days broken up by Camryn's week at summer camp and both kids' week-long trip to their grandparents' house in Oregon.


Related to the above is #kidvaction! Mark and I got our very first parenting vacation in 12 long years this month. We both enjoyed it, and missed them. I am now convinced that absence really does make the heart grow fonder, because after several kid-free days, we began wanting to do and buy things for them. No reason, just cuz we love 'em. Sheesh.

Not waiting til the last minute to buy school supplies.


Conquering a fear by going shooting. It was actually kind of empowering.

Photos, photos, photos!

Cool old church

Just me

Sunset

Cotton candy clouds

Seattle
And starting tomorrow, I will be participating in Adopt A Pantry which is being organized by the mastermind behind Run Blog Give, Jamie at Chosen Chaos. We are encouraging ourselves and YOU to keep track of the days we exercise and donate to local food banks from September 1 - Novermber 17, just in time for Thanksgiving donations. You know how I feel about feeding the hungry, so I am HAPPILY all over this!



Your turn! What's your August HAPPY?

(Come back on Tuesday the 4th for September's Did You Know? link-up!)


August 28, 2012

Evolution of Love

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Train of thought:

Watching a commercial for football....former players who are commentators now...shown walking down a hallway....thought it looked like they all walk funny....

Remembered that the way Mark walked when I first met him was something I found attractive -- I liked the way he carried himself....

But now, with his advanced diabetic neuropathy....he doesn't walk like that anymore.

Felt sad for a moment. Mostly for Mark. I recognize that I don't love him any less because he doesn't walk the same. In fact, I love him more today than I did then.
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I believe love evolves over time. It changes. Morphs. Begins as one thing, but becomes something different.

I get frustrated with what seems to be a lack of understanding that relationships should and do change. You know, the typical, "he's never romantic anymore" kind of thing.

What I've learned is that friendship is the foundation of a good marriage. You need to not only be in love with that person, but actually LIKE them too.

Like being around them. Like living with them. Enjoy their company. Find them interesting, funny, inspiring....worth sharing your life with. And genuinely want the other person to be happy.

Even when it isn't awesome. Or perhaps, especially when it isn't awesome.

Before I married Mark, while thinking it all through, and in order to help me know for certain that we were doing the right thing, I asked myself, "Do I want to break up with him? Or do I love him and want to be with him?"

I did not want to break up with him, I loved him and wanted us to be together. The idea of not being with Mark made my stomach do flips and tears prick my eyes.

So I felt I was ready to marry him.

Fast forward 14 years, two children and a slew of experiences later, and I realize the things that initially attracted me to Mark are not why I still love him today.

Like, not at all.

In fact, we are both pretty different from the day we met 18 years ago. And we should be.

What is the trick to growing and changing within a marriage?

I have my theories. Things like the big "C" -- communication. Always trying to balance time together with time apart, respecting each other's interests and doing the little things. I'm sure our many struggles that have bonded us are important too.

But when it comes down to it, I don't have the answers. All I know is what works for us.

And that Love evolves.

August 27, 2012

These Kids Today

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My daughter was born in 2000. My children are growing up in a new millennium.

And now it's 2012.

I hear people all the time lamenting what kids have today that "I didn't have when I was a kid!".

I've decided that this way of thinking is silly. Each generation is different than the one before. Each age brings new technologies, new ways of thinking, new norms.

Do we really need to begrudge the fact that our kids will never know life without the Internet?

The above infographic is perfect because I grew up in the '80s (turned 8 in 1982). Life is much different in 2012, even if the fashions have come back around!

10 Things That Tell Me My Kids Are Growing Up Differently Than I Did

1. Google - no longer a need for volumes of encyclopedias

2. Cell phones - we got our daughter one in 6th grade. Don't think I had my first one til I was at least 22. Camryn will probably have one for the rest of her life.

3. Video game consoles - sure, a handful of my friends had the very first Nintendo, but now pretty much EVERY kid has a game console, or two.

4. YouTube - I used to watch music videos on MTV. My kids can pull them up whenever they feel like on YouTube.

5. No screen hours - hubs and I had to institute a rule of "no screen time" hours each day. Neither of us needed this rule.

6. Cursive - I spent a great deal of my 3rd grade year learning to write in cursive. My daughter, on the other hand, had a measly "unit" on writing in cursive. Probably only so she can sign her name.

7. Recycling - I don't think we recycled at all when I was kid. Now, our recycling bin is bigger than our trash bin. This is a good thing!

8. When you know better, you do better - I remember my mother being very impressed with how much I knew about Camryn's development from the moment she was conceived, and how best to take care of myself during pregnancy to give her the best start I could.

9. My children are gorgeous! And so are most of the kids I know. I'm pretty sure people are evolving to be better and better looking with each generation.

10. Dishwashers - yes, yes, dishwashers have been around for a long time. But I NEVER had one growing up. At least not a working one. It was my job to wash, dry and put away each and every dirty dish. As soon as I left home, my mom and step-dad bought a dishwasher. But I'm not bitter. Maybe.

It is my hope that we will one day live in a Star Trek world. I wish it was now, but maybe for my grandchildren or great-grandchildren?

By the way, it is my firm belief that if you wore a style the first time it was popular (such as leggings), you are not supposed to wear it when it comes back around. Just sayin'.



Come back on Friday for my monthly TGIF linky, to look back on the HAPPY of August!

August 20, 2012

beCAUSE



This summer I've been talking about food banks.

I participated in the Nestle Juicy Juice Fruit for All Project. I walked with Run. Blog. Give.

But why do I feel so passionately about helping to feed the hungry?

You'd think I'd be more interested in medical research of Diabetes, kidney disease, heart disease and blindness.

I do care about those things. But those problems are more abstract to me.

If I'm being completely honest, maybe I'm a little cynical about those things.

Causes having to do with researching to find cures for diseases are noble and good, and of course I appreciate them.

But hunger, a lack of a basic human need, has more of a pull for me.

It probably has something to do with my strong sense of fairness. My brain just can't comprehend how letting a needy person go hungry is ever alright.

How can we expect people to reach their full potential in life if they are struggling just to have their basic needs met?

I don't have much; less than most, more than some. But I have a home, I have clothes, I have clean water and I have food.

Everyone should have those things. At least.

I'm grateful to not know what it feels like to be hungry.

How desperate it must feel to not know where your next meal will come from!

Giving away some of my food is easy. IT'S SO EASY.

It just makes sense to me. Sharing some of my food, and asking others to do so as well, is something I can do.

I have been the recipient of many generosities in my life. I have to pay it forward somehow. I can't cure disease, but I can give to those less fortunate.

We must do what we can. It's good for the soul, the heart, the world.

It helps me feel like I'm enough.

August 16, 2012

The School Cycle


There is a cycle to each year when you have kids in school.

Every June you are just as ready as the kids for school to be over and summer break to commence. Then August hits and you start counting down the days until you can wave goodbye to your darling children as they hop onto the school bus to begin a shiny new school year.

This September, for me, a whole new chapter begins, as both of my offspring will be in school full time.

Wait. Let me clarify. People seem to think that all day school is literally ALL day. It's really only six hours, which is only one fourth of 24 hours. Which is why moms worship at the school altar.

Nevertheless, this is a big deal.

8 things I look forward to when sending the kids back to school

1. Getting back to a consistent routine

2. Knowing my children's brains aren't turning to mush

3. Space and time to focus on some long-neglected stuff

4. A (hopefully) less messy house

5. Fall also means TV shows returning!

6. Not having to feed my kids lunch

7. Cute pictures of my kids and their backpacks and the school bus

8. This....



read to be read at yeahwrite.me
Inspired by Mama Kat.

August 13, 2012

10 Things My Parents Did Right

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You know what? My parents don't completely suck. They never really did.

Shocking, I know. But here's the thing, we all think they do suck during every teen year at some point, don't we?

There are simply things kids cannot understand until they themselves are parents too. I'm already telling my kids this. Regularly!

The benefit of hindsight being what it is....

Things I Think My Parents Did Right

1. They tried - I had very young parents. My dad was 20 and my mom was almost 17 when I was born. They got married and became parents. Despite their divorce 5 years later, I know they tried. And I never really had any angst over it.

2. They didn't shelter me - One of my earliest memories is when our dog, Blue, had to be put down. My parents told me and had me say goodbye to him. I vividly remember crying and hugging his neck. The way they handled it, helped me understand. And I don't think anything was ever dumbed-down for me.

3. Cousins - My dad is one of five, so for the first 2/3 of my childhood (until I went to live with my mom) I spent as much time as possible with my cousins. I'm an only child, so I simply adored spending time with them.

4. I wasn't spoiled - Many only children can grow up spoiled rotten. When I was young my parents were working class, so they couldn't spoil me with material things. But I don't believe they would have if they had been able. I had everything I needed, plus one pretty awesome banana seat Schwinn bicycle!

5. Stability - My dad  and step-mom provided a steady, predictable home life where I knew what was expected of me, and I did it. This is not even something I can always do for my own kids due to my husband's health problems. But you can be damn sure that when we're not in crisis mode, my kids' little lives are steady and predictable.

6. Appreciation of the outdoors - I grew up camping, hiking, biking, boating, swimming and even did a little skiing. I hiked Mt. Pilchuck here in Washington when I was 2 or 3! Both my parents made sure I saw the beauty all around me, whether the lushness of the Pacific Northwest or the natural wonder of Yosemite Valley in California. And let's not forget that I got to LIVE in Lake Tahoe! I may not do many of those things anymore, but I still appreciate the beauty around me.

7. Music - My father is an audiophile who loves music, and has a nice singing voice. My uncle was a musician and singer who owned his own recording studio. My cousin is a concert pianist. My mother would turn ordinary conversation into song (with much eye rolling from me). I got to be in the school band, playing a flute that was rented to own. Such a fun memory I have is of my mom and I ROCKING OUT to Bon Jovi in her Jeep, singing at the top of our lungs. All of this rubbed off on me.

8. Knowing what makes you happy and doing it - When my parents were divorcing my mother realized she couldn't live in Washington anymore. But my dad had custody. It sucked that my mom needed to live so far away from me, but even when I was little I somehow understood, and even respected her for doing what she needed to do to build a life on her own.

9. Freedom to be me - I was free to learn whatever interested me. I was free to develop my own spiritual beliefs. When my mom decided to stop eating meat, she didn't force me to do so as well. My parents never tried to make me into some vision they had of who I should be.

10. An abundance of Love - No matter what ever happened in our lives, I never doubted that I was loved. There's not much more I can say about that. Just love. And affection. There were always hugs, kisses and "I love yous" going around!

August 10, 2012

I'm so sick of feeding my kids.

There. I said it.

Right now, my #1 kid irritation is having to feed them.

Constantly.

Every day.

Breakfast, snack, Lunch, snack, Dinner, snack.

To be completely fair, it's not so much my daughter as it is my son.


AJ is 6 1/2 and seems to be having a growth spurt because he is SO FREAKING HUNGRY!

And apparently whining must accompany being hungry.

Like a kid needs one more reason to whine!

Breakfast is usually pretty easy. He wants either an English muffin or toast with peanut butter, or cereal.

Lunch, on the other hand? I give him choices and he says NO to EVERY SINGLE ONE the first time I say them. Then he asks what his choices are AGAIN.

And sometimes....SOMETIMES....he makes a choice, I start getting it together and he CHANGES HIS MIND.

He's TRYING to drive me INSANE!

Same with snacks. I've finally filled a basket with all sorts of snack foods and set it smack dab in the middle of the table.


DO NOT ASK ME WHAT YOUR SNACK CHOICES ARE ANYMORE, my dear sweet child.

But there's a light at the end of the tunnel. Come September, he will start full day school which means EATING LUNCH THERE.

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HALLELUJAH!

If he lives until then....

August 7, 2012

Did You Know? About Dialysis

When I tell people about my husband's health problems, I notice there seems to be little knowledge of End Stage Renal Disease (ESRD) or Chronic Kidney Disease (CKD), aka kidney failure, and dialysis treatments.

(Please keep in mind that I am not a medical professional. My perspective is that of the wife of a man on dialysis for the last 10 years.)

According to the United States Renal Data System (USRDS), "1 in 10 American adults, more than 20 million, have some level of CKD". The most common causes of ESRD are diabetes and high blood pressure.

Mark was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes just after he turned 9 years old. By the age of 25, when I met him, his kidneys were functioning at about 20-25%. About a year and a half later, he needed to start dialysis.
The main job of the kidneys is to clean wastes and extra fluid from your blood.  If your kidneys fail, you will need dialysis or a kidney transplant to live.  These are treatments to help replace the job of the kidneys.
Dialysis is the artificial process of getting rid of waste (diffusion) and unwanted water (ultrafiltration) from the blood. This process is naturally done by our kidneys.
People in kidney failure cannot filter toxins from their blood and cannot produce urine. Thus, toxins and fluids build up in the blood stream. This makes one feel run down, sluggish, achy, bloated, and can cause shortness of breath and nausea. Someone whose kidneys have failed will die if they do not receive treatment. ESRD is considered a legal disability.

There are two main types of dialysis -- hemodialysis and peritoneal dialysis. Hemodialysis involves being connected to a machine which removes, cleans and returns the blood. Peritoneal dialysis involves using a sterile solution rich in minerals and glucose inside the abdominal cavity where the peritoneal membrane acts as a filter.

When Mark first needed to start dialysis, he chose peritoneal because it affords much more freedom to the patient since it is done by the patient at home. It is a great option. However, it turned out not to be the best option for Mark. He was not getting adequate treatments and just got sicker and sicker. Unfortunately he did not have a very good doctor at that time and this went on for 4-5 months before it was determined that Mark needed to be on hemodialysis.

Fortunately, it was only about another month before he received a dual kidney and pancreas transplant (Easter Sunday, April 7, 1996) at UCSF. Mark's transplant was successful treatment for six years before the organs rejected. He returned to being insulin dependent and on hemodialysis in February 2002. He is on the transplant list at UW, however his first transplant caused his body to create antibodies to the majority of the population, making him a difficult match. Also, his heart problems have forced UW to have Mark bounce back and forth from active to inactive several times. Your heart needs to be strong enough for the transplant surgery.

Dialysis is essentially a form of life support. Many people have chosen not to receive dialysis treatments and let their condition take its natural course, meaning death. Further, many people skip treatments regularly. Mark and I cannot understand why anyone would want to skip dialysis and make themselves feel crappy. Dialysis doesn't replace normal kidney function as it is, and the constant up and down imbalance of electrolytes causes complications (such as Mark's heart problems). The need for dialysis is not something to take lightly. Mark has NEVER skipped a regular treatment at his clinic, unless he was in the hospital, and then they dialyze him there.

Being on in-center hemodialysis is equivalent to a part-time job. The usual schedule is three times a week for about four hours, which equals twelve hours every week. Mark does this, plus an extra treatment on Saturdays, equaling 16 hours a week.

Several years ago I read an essay a dialysis social worker wrote. She decided that in order to better understand the patients she needed to better understand what a dialysis treatment is like. With the help of the techs and nurses in the clinic, she performed an experiment on herself. She sat in a dialysis chair for four hours, with the lines taped to her arm. She simulated the fluid load by having bags of saline placed all over her body, and then slowly removed as her "treatment" progressed. She thought she could read a book, but her tethered arm made that difficult. She closed her eyes and tried to rest, but the beeping alarms of the machines kept waking her up. All in all it was a very frustrating experience and she came away with a new-found respect for dialysis patients.

If you've managed to get through this entire post, thank you. Now you know more about what dialysis is like. Knowledge is a good thing.

I can't close without also pleading with you to become a registered organ donor. I believe it is our moral obligation to let doctors have whatever parts of our bodies they can use to help others after we die. Do you know they can use everything from skin to organs to the corneas of the eyes? There are so many people waiting for organs, my husband being only one. You can also donate parts of your body while you're still alive, such as blood, bone marrow, a kidney and part of your liver. Imagine being able to save a life! The key is to make the decision, and then tell your loved ones about your decision. They need to know because they will have to make the final decision for you.

OK, off my soapbox! Again, I thank you for reading this.


August 4, 2012

For Your Pinning Pleasure Too

HERE I gave you For Your Pinning Pleasure, the first.

Now I'd like to share more pretty quotes I've made for my posts....you know, in case you weren't paying attention and missed them. :-)










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August 2, 2012

The State of Public Schools in America

Not too long ago I vented my frustration about our state's standardized testing and my daughter's middle school's policy on electives based on passing or failing the test.

I am not happy with it at all.

So when I was presented with the opportunity to read about a completely different approach to teaching, I was intrigued.

Let me point out that I am not an educator. I am just a mom of two school-aged kids. A mom, who for quite a while felt alright about the public schools her kids are attending. That is until my daughter started middle school.

But I don't want to get ahead of myself. The book I was given to read, discuss and GIVE AWAY is Mission Possible: How the Secrets of the Success Academies Can Work in Any School....


This book is about how some passionate educators took it upon themselves to start a public charter school in Harlem, NY, how they did it, how they continue to teach and grow, and what other schools can take from the Success Academies and implement to increase learning across the country.

What I have taken away from this book is that if you change the way teachers teach, and give them tons of professional support and development, kids -- from all socio-economic circumstances -- will respond with out of this world results.

Teaching has long-been a highly respected profession. But it seems that that respect does not translate into the support teachers need to do their jobs well. Many public schools struggle to provide students with quality textbooks, let alone all the tools a teacher could use to help their students learn, and learn well.

Shall I go off right here about why this is? I think it's because our country's priorities are seriously skewed. That our government is spending way too much on things like tanks and bombs and lifetime congressional salaries, than it is on educating our children. The statistics cited in Mission Possible are scary! Our kids are NOT being educated on par with other countries similar to ours. Considering how we Americans feel about our country, and our children, that seems very UN-American to me.

Unfortunately I must admit that I have been one to complain about the "professional development" time our teachers take because it cuts the school day short. But my goodness, they NEED all the help they can get! Success Academies provides an intensive "T School" (that's school for teachers) during the summer, and this is translating into well-trained and highly motivated teachers and it rubs off on their students.

So all I'm saying is, a long hard look has been taken on so many other issues in recent years and I think it's time for our eyes to turn to improving the state of public education in America. And maybe the approach of the Success Academies is a good place to start.

Connect with author and Success Academies founder Eva Moskowitz:


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If you are a US resident age 18 or older, you can enter to win 1 (one) of 2 (two) copies of Mission Possible in the comment section below. Giveaway will run August 2 - August 9, 2012. Winners will be selected via Random.org, announced and contacted on August 10, 2012. Books will be mailed out the following week.
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