Question Me: About Kids

Here is the third installment of the questions you asked for my blogoversary. It's the third post and there are three questions....about kids!

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1. Do you wish you could have just one more baby?

Sure, I wish I could....but I'm totally OK with not. I feel extremely blessed to have been able to have the two I have, considering my husband's health. Diabetics often have a hard time with fertility. When we decided to try for our first, Mark was doing well with his transplant, and it took us only 2 months to conceive. But the second time we tried, Mark no longer had his transplant and it took 6 months. Not a huge difference, but still noticeable. The kicker is that I had Gestational Diabetes in both pregnancies. Seriously? So ironic.

I always wanted more than one child. I got two. Would have loved to have three, but honestly, that ship has sailed. Mark's health declines a little more each year, and I'm on the down slope towards 40. If circumstances had been different, maybe we'd have three....

2. Are you excited for the day your kids are old enough to drive you around?
...or scared?

Both? Of course I've thought, "hey, my kids can drive me around someday!", but it's not like I'm waiting with bated breath for the day to arrive. I don't really know if I'll want them to drive the moment they turn 16, and I honestly have no idea where they're gonna get cars. Guess they better plan to get jobs too!

And I'm always scared in cars. I have no control! So I bet I won't be any more scared with them than I am with anyone else. At least with my kids, I can justify yelling at them!

3. Will you want your kids to live with you after they turn 18?

I don't know if want is the right word, but I have a feeling I wouldn't mind it. I don't think I will be one to be anxiously awaiting the day my kids get the hell out of my house!

Pretty much, I don't want them to move out until they're ready. I want to feel, and for them to feel, that they can take care of themselves, that they have the skills and resources to do so. Now that's not to say I want any "failure to launch" issues! I just think I am their mom and with me is their first and forever home. I want them to know they always have a soft place to land, without taking advantage of it. Hopefully I can pull that off!

I am currently anticipating the next chapter of motherhood: having both kids gone to school 6 hours a day, 5 days a week (well, give or take holidays and teacher days). Next September my baby boy will start first grade! That will be more emotional for me than preschool or kindergarten ever were. Those were more like Awww moments. This is HUGE. I am no longer the mom of little kids. They're big kids now! And with that comes all sorts of new and different joys and challenges.

Camryn is a pre-teen, for crying out loud! She turns 12 this summer. I've purchased her first little bras! How does this happen?? The passage of time astonishes and bewilders me. I still think about her little toddler self all the time, the way she said "flow-wow" for flower and "ga-gog" for hot dog.

I just love these pains in the neck them so much.