July 8, 2015

I Can't Blog....I Haz the Life

I am writing this real quick, on the fly, before I bail out of my house for a girl's night out that I'm desperately hoping I can fake my way to happy for.

You see, things have been very trying for me (and Mark) for the last few weeks, and it's all been bubbling to the surface these last few days.

there's all of THAT, along with the kids home for the summer and a very long and annoying heat wave uncharacteristic of Western Washington.

Kids being home isn't bad, per se, but it does hugely get in the way of my computer time, Especially because I am making my teen do online summer school, which she is none too pleased about.

Well, excuse me, darling daughter, but NEITHER AM I!

So we're hot, my husband and I are having a helluva time communicating and understanding each other, the kids are always wanting or needing the computer and....just when I'd love to get some of this off my chest....I cannot.

I have a sponsored post I have to do by Friday....

One of the reasons I wanted to post SOMETHING....ANYTHING now.

Even if all I'm doing is running on about nothing in particular, babbling and you're sitting there scratching your head.

Yeah, I'm a little off my rocker at the moment.

Actually, I just sobbed in the shower. I am very emotional. And frustrated. A bit angry.

Maybe more than a bit.

I feel like I can't do anything right, that I'm making so many mistakes.

Nobody understands me.

I don't understand them.

I'm trying to keep this in mind:

But it is a lot easier said than done.

So yeah, the bottom line is that I am struggling with some shit right now.

Trying to pretend that I'm not.
And at least for tonight, I'm gonna continue to fake it. Because tonight is for one of my very best friend's birthday and I love her very much.

Also, I just need to get OUT.

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