Because I'm not in a great place right now.
And I really want to pull myself up.
But it's hard when there's so much weighing you down.
Like today being one week since the school shooting in my town. Or this year of continuous health complications for my husband.
I feel like I am surrounded by grief and loss and heartache. Perhaps I'm too empathetic. Maybe I should have a thicker skin.
But I don't. That's not who I am.
I'm walking a fine line between letting myself feel however I feel, and not wallowing in it.
I realize this might not be the best way to begin a happy/thankful list, but it's the truth.
So I must dig deep to find the things that lighten the burdens. The things that make me smile and feel good.
Because they are there. They always are.
1. Fall colors.
2. Salted caramel mochas - why this sweet, salty deliciousness in a cup is seasonal I do not know.
3. Home health care nurses - they are kind and thorough, and when they visit, I'm not worried.
4. So much logistical help from my dad and mother-in-law.
5. Getting out for walks even if I get sprinkled on (just makes me walk faster).
6. So many good TV shows to watch that I can't keep up.
8. Witnessing the outpouring of love and support and kindness from the community I live in (and surrounding communities) since the shooting last week.
9. Glowing reports from my son's teacher.
10. Halloween - I could take it or leave it, but my kids love it and there's candy and cute little ones who knock on your door and sweetly say, "Twick o tweet", and I mean, how can you not smile at that?
What made you smile or feel thankful this month?
Please, lay it on me! I could use a healthy dose of good things.
Inspired by 10 Things to Smile About and Ten Things of Thankful.